haywire

i felt like giving up...everything is ruined..i dont think i am able to call your mother anymore...it is just too hard..knowing that she will never accept me..i will never make you happy..

mak
nabilah mintak maaf..nabilah tak ganggu mak dah k..

sayang mak.

azam tahun baru

walaupun dah masuk bulan februari, azam tahun baru 2 patut dah kene ada la kan...but it's better than have nothing to accomplish betul x?
lately i've been thinking about many things, with many things had happen.. i realize how hard it might be, my god Allah is always there to guide all of us, my friends and me. it may look very hard where you think all hope is lost, no one can help you anymore. but one way or another, remember that He is always there to help you.
in order to thank Him, who help me in getting him back, new rules is made.

1. mind my manners with everyone
2. try learn to wear like a girl yang menutup aurat
3. study all out. how?

o at night, study at least 2 lectures (i will try my best!!)
o if i have free time, study lectures from modules before
o at the end of the week, go to the library. (harap umah mmg tido)
o elsewhere, g la mana2 tmpat comfortable ke
o xphm tnya...setel kan trus
o and please don't sleep in the class (T.T)

4. don't spend on 'benda x ketahuan'...seriously i have enough 'baju RM10'
5. diet..

o breakfast : no mknn berat. ckup utuk than until lunch...igt duit...
o lunch : nasi
o dinner : oat + biscuits
o no more eggs ( i felt so unhealthy wlaupun niat bek nk jimat..-.-")
o more plain water and don't skip my daily supplement..(ot's too big...)
o kalo dah nk sgt mkn berat mlm2, just once in a while..smgu sekali ke

6. 2 je kot?

i want my life is blessed by Allah now and always. thank you. hopefully niat ni kekal la smpai bile2.

tapi bile tgk2 blek...bile nk blaja memasak? *sigh