You are the same

You left me when I haven't finished talking yet. You hate it when I do that but why did you do the same thing over and over? Then you'll be blaming me.. Seriously..
Can you please not get mad for a while?

Why did you kept blaming me for your failure..
Am I really that bad..T.T

Love you. Miss you.

i trust you

thank you for everything..
please take care of me..
you promise and promise..
and i want you to kept it..
not just because it is a promise..
not just because you want to take care of my feelings..
it is simply because you want to.

i give my trust on you.
please fulfill it. will you?

love you. miss you.

exam again

exam is getting near and i had lots of things to read, as usual. keje last minute, biasa la. sangat2 memahami.
at my watch, is already 12.00 am and im sleepy. after finished doing my ILA, i didnt managed to read ,ore notes.
xpe2, azam baru, lepas sahur puasa esok xnak tido.

my aim :
read as much as i can and dont even care about how many lecture notes left, as long as i continue on reading ^^

dear you, lets fasting together tomorrow and study together? time lecture la, cam biasa, hehe

bleh?

and i still remember about mom and dad

lastly,

love you. miss you.

Mom and dad

It hurts..thinking about how hate mom' s towards me. How dad hates me. Why do we have to face this? Like you said, it was too soon. Mom gave me hope, she gave me presents, she called me, texted me, asked me what I'm doing. I was happy to be treated that way. But then she became so cold, like I never existed. She treat me like an outsider, like I'm no one to you guys. I thought I was somebody.

"Along, seburuk mana Nabilah tu, jangan lepaskan dia. Biaq la dia tak pandai wat keja ka, mak boleh ajaq"
"Jaga dia elok-elok along. Dia dah banyak tolong ang"

"Nabilah jaga la Ashraf tu. Dia tu ralet sikit abeh la. Hilang tu hilang ni. Suruh dia jaga barang dia betul-betul"
"Bella tengah wat apa? Mak saja ja call, nak sembang pasal Yam"
"Tidoq cam katak"

How I miss mom and dad so much..

Kepada mak dan abah,
Nabilah mintak maaf kalo nabilah dah menyakitkan ati mak abah. Nabilah tak berniat langsung nak wat mak abah marah. Nabilah tau nabilah silap. Tapi nabilah tak sengaja.. Kalo mak kata nabilah x pandai wat keja umah ka, masak ka, nabilah tengah blaja lagi. Nabilah slalu kemas bilik, dapur pun sama. Nak harapkan yang lain memang tak dak harapan la. Kemas umah tu susah la sket sebab Nabilah tak sempat, balik kelas lewat, malam mesti dah rasa penat. Hujung minggu plak keja kat kl. Tapi kat kl pun nabilah masak sarapan kat umah kak siti, bos kitorang. Kalo bab masak, setiap malam nabilah masak. Ashraf pun selalu pesan, rajin-rajin la kemas umah, masak. Nabilah ingat pesan dia.

Mak, nabilah mintak maaf.. Nabilah x berniat..
Sayang mak abah..

Love you. Miss you.

the day out

im sorry but i really tried my best on staying up all nite and i failed. and now, i woked up around 4.40 am and updating my blog. though the morning is just too cold and i kept sneezing (i slept on the floor btw). and yes, i do have fun cleaning your room, wash your clothes, dried it up, fold it, making breakfast for you and your housemate. it was a great fun. but im sorry that it only last for a while.

can i do it again some other time?

oh, and for tomorrow, have fun. eat as much as you can and eat on my behalf.

going out with the yesterday was okay. but it was incomplete without you. i kept thinking of buying things for you. but think about it again, its not about me. its about them. plus, i dont have any money -.-" . sorry. anyway, we were separated. i hang out with naqib and ejat while the other two went to their separate ways. dah lama x jumpa kan, phm2 je l a ^^. so i went on strolling but has nothing to do. i just followed the guys. at last. we stop at kfc when we felt really tired and our legs cramped.

sempat lagi naqib dok kata

"study, nak exam,"

and i was, ok, baca buku la, haha. lucky me, i have some with me because you gave half of it in the morning, hehe. and then i start to call you. text you.. ^^ and you know the rest.

im sorry again. tq 4 the ride home.

love you. miss you.

im a sleepyhead indeed

oleh kerana hari ni balik awal, rasa nak tido 2 sangat la tinggi. lepas men zombie farm of course, saya berhasrat untuk tido. tapi biasa la.. sekali tido mmg susah nk bgun..huhu..asal nya dah bgun pkul 6...tgk dah bgun jln merata dah..tapi baring jap, men zombie farm lagi, tido.....

n then you woke me up..pkul 7 lbeh. dengan mamai nya, bgun sat, sembang2, tgk hp, ada txt n misscall, tido blek..n you woke me up, again for the 2nd time. pkul 7.50. bgun solat, tido blik. n then you call for the 3rd time, pkul 9 bape ntah. x igt. 9.30 kot. ckp g suh mndi. n then tido lagi..u call once again at 9.50. suh bgun..nsib bek la dah agak sedar time 2 kerana nabilah baca blog abg sebelum 2..^^ suka.

pastu g mndi...msak2..n i met u..through sms la..

you..will things ever be back like before?
n tq..4 being patient with me ^^

love you. miss you.

langkawi or kl?

my sister said that they're going to langkawi next week. from 5th to 13th December. i thought of going back to langkawi but it takes a long way there. i wont have the time to catch the ferry. if that happen (which it will), i dont have a place to stay....

blum pape lagi dah kene balik ari ahad..sekejap sgt..

i thought twice when thinking about zrb. well, i told qilah to meet her and to take her there. but..i dont find any new people for my down-line which is such a shame. seriously i felt useless.............x pasal2 kene leter ngn kak ct..

kalo nk dok ipoh...what else to do..diba is going home...so i have to stuck in the house? yela, no transport to go out. if i did, nak g ngan sapa... i want to do something on the weekend..what should i do.. T.T

i dont think that going back is the best choice..


and the thing i want to tell you in class just this morning is that i became the imam for the jemaah during solat zohor in college. its been a while since the last time i do that ^^ its because of your moody face which spoil everything.. smile ^^

love you. miss you.