You are the same

You left me when I haven't finished talking yet. You hate it when I do that but why did you do the same thing over and over? Then you'll be blaming me.. Seriously..
Can you please not get mad for a while?

Why did you kept blaming me for your failure..
Am I really that bad..T.T

Love you. Miss you.

i trust you

thank you for everything..
please take care of me..
you promise and promise..
and i want you to kept it..
not just because it is a promise..
not just because you want to take care of my feelings..
it is simply because you want to.

i give my trust on you.
please fulfill it. will you?

love you. miss you.

exam again

exam is getting near and i had lots of things to read, as usual. keje last minute, biasa la. sangat2 memahami.
at my watch, is already 12.00 am and im sleepy. after finished doing my ILA, i didnt managed to read ,ore notes.
xpe2, azam baru, lepas sahur puasa esok xnak tido.

my aim :
read as much as i can and dont even care about how many lecture notes left, as long as i continue on reading ^^

dear you, lets fasting together tomorrow and study together? time lecture la, cam biasa, hehe

bleh?

and i still remember about mom and dad

lastly,

love you. miss you.

Mom and dad

It hurts..thinking about how hate mom' s towards me. How dad hates me. Why do we have to face this? Like you said, it was too soon. Mom gave me hope, she gave me presents, she called me, texted me, asked me what I'm doing. I was happy to be treated that way. But then she became so cold, like I never existed. She treat me like an outsider, like I'm no one to you guys. I thought I was somebody.

"Along, seburuk mana Nabilah tu, jangan lepaskan dia. Biaq la dia tak pandai wat keja ka, mak boleh ajaq"
"Jaga dia elok-elok along. Dia dah banyak tolong ang"

"Nabilah jaga la Ashraf tu. Dia tu ralet sikit abeh la. Hilang tu hilang ni. Suruh dia jaga barang dia betul-betul"
"Bella tengah wat apa? Mak saja ja call, nak sembang pasal Yam"
"Tidoq cam katak"

How I miss mom and dad so much..

Kepada mak dan abah,
Nabilah mintak maaf kalo nabilah dah menyakitkan ati mak abah. Nabilah tak berniat langsung nak wat mak abah marah. Nabilah tau nabilah silap. Tapi nabilah tak sengaja.. Kalo mak kata nabilah x pandai wat keja umah ka, masak ka, nabilah tengah blaja lagi. Nabilah slalu kemas bilik, dapur pun sama. Nak harapkan yang lain memang tak dak harapan la. Kemas umah tu susah la sket sebab Nabilah tak sempat, balik kelas lewat, malam mesti dah rasa penat. Hujung minggu plak keja kat kl. Tapi kat kl pun nabilah masak sarapan kat umah kak siti, bos kitorang. Kalo bab masak, setiap malam nabilah masak. Ashraf pun selalu pesan, rajin-rajin la kemas umah, masak. Nabilah ingat pesan dia.

Mak, nabilah mintak maaf.. Nabilah x berniat..
Sayang mak abah..

Love you. Miss you.

the day out

im sorry but i really tried my best on staying up all nite and i failed. and now, i woked up around 4.40 am and updating my blog. though the morning is just too cold and i kept sneezing (i slept on the floor btw). and yes, i do have fun cleaning your room, wash your clothes, dried it up, fold it, making breakfast for you and your housemate. it was a great fun. but im sorry that it only last for a while.

can i do it again some other time?

oh, and for tomorrow, have fun. eat as much as you can and eat on my behalf.

going out with the yesterday was okay. but it was incomplete without you. i kept thinking of buying things for you. but think about it again, its not about me. its about them. plus, i dont have any money -.-" . sorry. anyway, we were separated. i hang out with naqib and ejat while the other two went to their separate ways. dah lama x jumpa kan, phm2 je l a ^^. so i went on strolling but has nothing to do. i just followed the guys. at last. we stop at kfc when we felt really tired and our legs cramped.

sempat lagi naqib dok kata

"study, nak exam,"

and i was, ok, baca buku la, haha. lucky me, i have some with me because you gave half of it in the morning, hehe. and then i start to call you. text you.. ^^ and you know the rest.

im sorry again. tq 4 the ride home.

love you. miss you.

im a sleepyhead indeed

oleh kerana hari ni balik awal, rasa nak tido 2 sangat la tinggi. lepas men zombie farm of course, saya berhasrat untuk tido. tapi biasa la.. sekali tido mmg susah nk bgun..huhu..asal nya dah bgun pkul 6...tgk dah bgun jln merata dah..tapi baring jap, men zombie farm lagi, tido.....

n then you woke me up..pkul 7 lbeh. dengan mamai nya, bgun sat, sembang2, tgk hp, ada txt n misscall, tido blek..n you woke me up, again for the 2nd time. pkul 7.50. bgun solat, tido blik. n then you call for the 3rd time, pkul 9 bape ntah. x igt. 9.30 kot. ckp g suh mndi. n then tido lagi..u call once again at 9.50. suh bgun..nsib bek la dah agak sedar time 2 kerana nabilah baca blog abg sebelum 2..^^ suka.

pastu g mndi...msak2..n i met u..through sms la..

you..will things ever be back like before?
n tq..4 being patient with me ^^

love you. miss you.

langkawi or kl?

my sister said that they're going to langkawi next week. from 5th to 13th December. i thought of going back to langkawi but it takes a long way there. i wont have the time to catch the ferry. if that happen (which it will), i dont have a place to stay....

blum pape lagi dah kene balik ari ahad..sekejap sgt..

i thought twice when thinking about zrb. well, i told qilah to meet her and to take her there. but..i dont find any new people for my down-line which is such a shame. seriously i felt useless.............x pasal2 kene leter ngn kak ct..

kalo nk dok ipoh...what else to do..diba is going home...so i have to stuck in the house? yela, no transport to go out. if i did, nak g ngan sapa... i want to do something on the weekend..what should i do.. T.T

i dont think that going back is the best choice..


and the thing i want to tell you in class just this morning is that i became the imam for the jemaah during solat zohor in college. its been a while since the last time i do that ^^ its because of your moody face which spoil everything.. smile ^^

love you. miss you.

im not strong

i felt like crying right now when i realise i cant hear ur voice..and i did...i need so much it hurts.i dont know if i can do i. i dont know how long i can withstand all this. and, i cried. serious it hurts so much. you promise me you wouldnt let me wait for you for so long kan? abang pun tau nabilah x kuat..please abang.. i dont want the same thing happen again..

you keep saying that i can do it. you trust me. but i dont. how can i go on when you are here but not beside me. my eyes keeps getting wet..even right now

abang..abang janji nak tgu nabilah kan..please..nabilah dah x larat..brape lama nabilah kene tgu abang..apa salah nabilah abang..suma nya jadi sbab benda 2...nabilah x wat pape pun...nabilah nk jmpa mak abah lagi...rindu..abang..i hate this

sorry.. i cant go on..*crying

tq 4 da necklace... i kept on wearing it..love you

enough is enough

sometimes, i dont understand the meaning of family anymore. no offense. it makes me happy when i met my family back at home, especially my siblings. but the mood will then spoiled by someone else. seriously, i dont find that going back home is one of the best thing happen for a student like me who stays far away from my family, due to my education. unlike my friends, they will like pack their stuff 2 or 3 days before going back, blabbering about what they will ask mom to cook and coming back here, bring some home-made dishes by their mom. well, i dont feel like that at all and doesnt hope for that as well.

at home, there will be a very long lecture in the morning, which already spoil the mood, and for almost like everyday, we went eating outside. if thats the case, it doesnt make any differences. then, continued being scolded for i-dont-know-where-it-went-wrong mistake, the cold look to me, not talking to me and etc. like this morning, we went to sent my brother at jalan duta. eat braekfast there, short chit-chat, he went into the bus, waving goodbye and you know what..all was having so much fun, with all the encouragement and stuff, bla bla bla..then, my dad sent me straight to kl sentral. i 'salam' someone and there it started again. the silent treat , with the cold look, not looking at me (eyes on the newspaper),seriously it annoys me. very much. i just had enough of it.

i dont find that being at home is a happy moment

a story

from the minute she knew that he will work in the holiday, she know that he will be very busy. even before when he does not work, he still busy other things and they dont have much time to spend together. the long distance between them makes it more difficult for them to contact with each other.

she knew that he is working for both of them, but she was greedy that she want him for herself. she wants to be pampered and felt loved by him. every night she hugged his sweater to feel more closer with him. hoping that he will text or call her. sometimes she felt so alone, wondering what is he doing at the moment.

every night he will contact her no matter how late it can be. just hear to his voice makes her want to cry. she does not have a reason to cry. she just felt happy that she heard his laugh. sorry is the only word came out from her mouth. she didnt want to make him angry. she just dont know what else to say.

sometimes, he work until late at night. she felt sorry for him when listening to his tired voice due to his hard, non-stop work. yes, she wants him but she promised that she will take good care of him. praying that tomorrow will make a difference. she just needs him.


"idiot, i just need you. i dont need others".

#note 4

hear nagging and being nag is not a way to start a day..*sigh..can i ever start my day with a laugh. smile.

#note 3

it's been a while since the last time i taste my mom's cook.

wish i were in perlis? ^^

my must-watch-in-the-future list^^

watch..

1. 'worlds within' by song hye kyo and hyun bin



2. 'running man' ~IU



3. 'toradora' anime



4. 'heroes' (korea)especially the episode they went on army, riding on jets


5. 'athena : goddess of war'



6. 'naruto' all episodes



7. 'fullmetal alchemist brotherhood'



8. 'dream high' by IU, taecyon, etc



9. 'city hunter' by lee ming ho




10.'lelouch of the rebellion' season 1 & 2



11.'clannad'



12.'you' at youtube all day long ^^


i think that's all, for now?

yume.

i have a dream. i want a never-ending happiness for us. i will study to my very best, help you and will make sure that both my parents knew that i am serious with you. i want to be good. i want to be the best i can for you. i am sorry for the things that i have done to you. i truly am. i kept thinking about it and i am gonna stop it. again, i want to take care of you. i have made a promise and i will kept it. i don't want to hurt you anymore, it hurts.

i want us to be forever, not just in this world. i want us to be in heaven together insyaAllah. i want you to be my partner forever. i really do. please guide me if i done wrong. i was lost. scold me, shout at me if it is the best for us. i really need your help. please. i don't want to go astray. don't let me made the same mistake again. i don't want to lose you. i almost lose you once and i don't want it to happen again. i am happy with you and i don't want 'us' to end.

i love you muhammad ashraf ahmad. fullstop.

What is love?

GIRL'S LANGUAGES :

If She Don't Text You :
-Its Because She's Waiting For You To Text Her

When She Walks Away From You Mad :
-Follow Her

When Shes Quiet :
-Ask Her What's Wrong

When She Ignores You :
-Give Her Your Attention

When She Pushes YOU AWAY :
-Pull Her BACK

When You See Her Crying :
-Wipe Her Tears & Ask What's Wrong

When She Says Go Away :
-Just Go Close To Her & Give Her Hug ♥


*credits to fathin amira, i get this from her fb..(i guess)

dear dear..

exam come to drop by to say hi..huhu..how i fear this moment to come.. i was afraid about the results after that.. whether i had already tried my best (hopefully..)..

dear 'exam', please be nice to me.. i will be nice to you

dear 'ILA', please be nice to me too..you know how deep i was crushed in my heart because of you last week..

dear 'notes', please can you make it short and understandable? you make me suffocate..

dear 'google', dont make me want to google you all day long.. i have notes to read..

dear 'room', you keep make me want to sleep..though i throw things on my bed it wont help

dear 'library', do help me to study..i need it



dear mr moo moo, do support me day by day..^^

#note 2

would it be nice if i am married now? ^^
1st thing, have someone to accompany you all the time
2nd, hijab?

#note 1

i want to sit at the back in the lecture because seriously it is painful to see the big slide right in front of me

things we did together

eat udang rebus kat uo berkuahkan kacang n apa ntah..
makan kat marry brown..
bukak puasa on saturday night which was so crowded..
buy clothes cost only RM5 each..
go to kedai bundle tapi x beli pape pun..
ride on bus 4x..
solat jemaah sama2, first time..
went on bicycle ride (drama korea tgh2 pekan ipoh)..
nek ets..
study kat library every weekend..
dgr lagu IU and tgedik2 ikut marshmallow..
melalak lagu2 lama..
koir club masa orientasi..
learning how to draw masa klas (ngantuk)..
eat lunch kat wisma (windy~)..
tukar hp csl ngn nokia masa kat kmkn..
switch sweaters..
taking pictures (but not as together)..
have a break with kitkat..
exchange pensil case..
buy hp csl together..
almost the same email..
wat cucoq yang sangat2 manis (sedap~~)..
kopek jagung..
wat assignment smpai bersenggang mata..
dok cucuk2 pkai pen kalo ttido masa lecture..
tmasuk ngn conteng tgn (kalo ttdo jugak)..
beli stokin yang murah..
padankan baju masa nk g dinner batch..
makan waffle and milo ais kat tren station..
makan dorayaki (dia kata x sdap T.T)..
eat McD kat kl sentral (x breakfast punya pasal)..
g jalan2 kat kl bli tiket gara2 ttgl tiket mahal kat ipoh..
switch matrics card..
tgk movie dalam bus smpai skit2 leher..
play air hockey and fruit ninja (still x puas ati)..

and lots more..^^

haha.. enjoying isn't it?

# what are words

song by : chris medina..2011 American Idol castoff
to her girlfriend who was suffered with brain damage due to car accident just days before their marriage..

Click here

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then their done
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud, those words
They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent
Just from me and now know I'm meant
To be where I am and I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight And I'm gonna be by your side

I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then their done
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud, those words
They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

kuih raya

smlam wat kuih raya dari pagi smpai mlm n sgt2 la pnt.. ari ni kne smbung wat lagi..huhu. pnat sgt smpai cl smlm pun ttdo..im really sori. i really miss someone smpai kuih raya pun dah jd smthing yg igtkan aku kat dia.. serious x prasan bile tdo..

gmbar kuih raya xleh upload..sori

sori



be hpi..k?

dugaan bulan puasa

yesterday was like a disaster for me, (seriously) as the KTM stop for like HOURS!!!!!!! its so hot, i felt like fainting in the train.

it happened when i was taking KTM from kl sentral to kajang. then the train was a bit late, not a bit but for 3o mins! and i wait and wait and finally it arrived (thank god or else. people kept coming you know)..then i took the ride and it was like in a sardine sandwich!! fully loade with people + the train was very slow. it then reached seputeh..and its getting more and more packed. people continue to enter. i was squeezed in it and it was not pleasant at all. i really mean it.

and it gets more and more slow...like snail...worst than that. then it stop. WHAT??????????

come on la, seyes aku rasa cam *************...sori di situ

anyway, time passed and it doesnt move at all, not even an inch. 15 mins..2o mins..25 mins..and it moved. (alhamdulillah.) and it was very very very slow...and it stopped..again. i stareted to felt tired mentally and physically. i only can lean at the pole. keliling = laki. depan aku ja 2 org pompuan..tension2..
things get worst when people started to get 'kecoh' ..
a baby cried and cried non stop. i was too hot.. poor child. seriously suma org x tau nk wat apa kat tgh2 railway 2. i started to think what if i just get out from the train. luckily im still sane. and it moved, again.. to arrive at the next stop take mins.

nsib bek la there was this one indian or singh guy, im not sure.. he offered me a sit. i felt so grateful... thank u mister..igt lagi dia ckp 'akak duduk la' syes bek kot..but it not last long..why?

cause when it reached salak selatan (the next stop, then bndar tasik selatan, serdang and KAJANG), it then stopped (i mean really stop) and doesnt move at all..the mother and baby went out, so does other people. unlucky for us, it was a bit raining outside, with no umbrella with me, i just have to bear it..not long after that, the rain stoppes. then ttba je people get back into the train. not packed sgt tp ok la, ada aircond.

but...(*sigh) we have to get out..(again) we waited again and suddenly ada sorg mamat yg berkuku pnjg tgur..so ackward

trus malas nk layan bile dia mntk no..i just thought about him all the time. dari stat train wat hal until the end. 'kan best kalo dia ada teman?'

i texted him to ask his help to text my mom..(no kredit, tq dear, i dont know what i can do without u) my mom called. told her everything and the train door was closed one by one with us outside. no briefing about what had happen. i told my mom about the thing that just had happen. then my mom and dad decide to fetch me at salak selatan (even though diorg x tau kat na)..my mom asked me to wait at the counter as it is more safer..

lama jugak la tgu..smpai smpat lagi sembang ngn sorg uncle india ni..bek jugak dia..uncle to tnya la blek cna, dari mana..etc. dia pun kes sama la..uncle 2 blek, kne tgl sorg2..

looking at my phone. 1 bar. cuak dah time 2. duit below than RM10..duit syiling xdak nk call pkai public..huhu..txt him...nk gtaw xleh nk txt him sb nk jimat bateri..(tapi i really need him, seriously i dont lie). punya la tgu. one by one keta dtg but not mom and dad, huhu..

at eleven p.m..setelah mcm2 dugaan dan sebagainyew..tq mom and dad..love u..

tq dear for worrying about me^^

hard much?

its been a month since im here, living with my dear friends. its been a rough time i tell you, by not being just a regular medical student. i admit, with all the lectures,, (sleepy -.-) and things that i need to catch up,seriously it was hard. living with myself and my housemate, we need to pay the bills, Wi-Fi, and for the petrol as well. oh yeah, i forgot the ink for my printer..(our printer to be exact). dah sebulan so phm2 la kene bayar kan. and i more thing, books. honestly, medical book has cost me a lot. its like..RM 600++? yeah..like crazy..fortunately my mom said "tak pe, untuk belajar"..

im still a student so i felt like it was kinda hard as the money is my parent's money. its different if i paid by my money. my own money. which i EARN. so i dont felt guilty about spending it. still, its still money. and when your own dear friend ask for your help..(desperately), it was hard for us, not just me. i mean that, we can help them but theres a time where there is a limit. we may help you in other way, but i dont know why, it just make feel so bad. im really sorry for you guys. seriously i truly am.

i never felt so selfish like this in my life.

"korg..kitorg mintak maaf sgt2. kitorg nk tolong tapi kitorg pun ada msalah kitrg pun ada msalah kat sini..we're really sorry.."

NS?

nervous system.. to be specific im now currently doing about ANS. still bluurry abit but what the heck. byk lagi masa...(nota x baca lagi...haha) anyway, susah giler nk wat with my housemate dok lena, cawan jatuh bunyi punya la kuat tapi x bgun2 jugak...isk2..rummate la nk lg specific kn. kata nk kongsi slide tp pa pun x wat lagi depa 2. sembang cm nk wat ja..haha...xpe2, puasa, pnat la 2..(thanks 4 da meal yesterday!) and to u,, bgun, wat keje, tdoq ja ^^











blum masuk lagi ILA punya keje..huhu. nsib bek la histo dah siap smlm..simple punya keje..2 la life budak medic skng..xpe2, bak kata mama byk2 sabo ye, baca surah, jgn joli beli komik..

..... *sigh

harga buku medic mhal giler dowh..xpe2...for education.. positive thinking dear!










ill be going back next week, maybe..mama ask me about going home..?

tlg faham

i dont want any call or txt from u.. knal pn x ..tlg la phm..

mr moo2, i need u

marry brown.

we're having lunch at marry brown..i took the order and we wait till our lunch is served..xnk la cte detail2 ..let's keep it a secret.. only between me and him ^^

u were just so cute you know that

reblog

just reblog it from an old fren of mine..reading it reminds me of him ^^
just read

Mummy, am I in LOVE?

Since my friends and a bunch of others have been misunderstood by the meaning of love here, the "Im in love with this guyyy, hs my soull" *tho it has only been a week*, or "It was love at first sight!"* and I guess when bumping into another hot guy the same line repeats again* kind of lines and end up messing with people's heart and feelings and getting heartbroken ! Well, here's some shitty tips Ive made up as I was in the shower. muahaha.

This tips/signs can only be applied once you've known the person well. YES, there's no such thing as LOVE when you havent even known that person's insides out. So those "in a relationship" status updaters out there, READ THIS.

Signs that YOU are in loloveee by Dr.Braceface (acecece),

1) You have definitely forgotten about your ex ! Yes, this is this number one reason. This special person has made u forget about your ugly past moreover your ugly ex. haa, So take a minute and think , are you still crying over your past or are you just laughing over it?

2) You dont notice others so much. Well, when you like this special someone, even if Orlando Bloom came knocking on your door with a bouquet of flowers and chocolates you still wouldnt care ! *But on second thoughts....* hehe. Well, get what I mean right? You really dont take notice of anyone else other than him/her. Everyone's a blur when he/she is around.

3) You think about him/her constantly and everything reminds you of em. "EVEN IN THE TOILET?" My friend asked.. WHY IN THE HELL WOULD YOU WANT TO THINK OF HIM IN THE TOILET YOU PERVY GIRL. Im being a good girl today. Boo You. I meant the slightest thing would go reminding you of him. Every single thing !

4) You start listening to lovey dovey meaningful songs. Once, you were a rocker girl/guy, You listen only to underground british bands, or those slim shady rapping song or crazy Mika, but when you are in love... Every bit of song reminds you of him/her. So you start changing your genre a bit and start listening to these kind of songs, as I labelled it "lovedove songs". Yeah, this is an obvious sign.

5) When he/she looks at you, your heart skips a beat ! :) Those jitters feelings you get when he/she looks at youu, feels like screaming on the top of the world just by a LOOK. A simple look ans you'll smile the whole day.

6) You learn to love his flaws. He is the cutest guy you've ever laid your eyes to but he walks in a funny way and talks in a high pitch voice. Would you mind? If your in love, you wouldnt ! Another big sign here !

7) You are too shy to talk to that person. WHY? Because your trying hard to be perfect when he is around. You dont want to mess things up by saying stupid stuff or looking like a dweeb so when you meet him/her its always "aaaaa..emmmm.huaaaa" for the first few lines. Yes, for the first time you feel shy talking to the opposite sex and yet you dont feel a thing when talking to anyone else.

8) All you seemed to talk about is about him/her. There's always " aww, he was so cute today" and that line will go repeating itself for the next 24 hours. Your big mouth cant stop talking about him.

9) When you see him with other girls, it kills you. Yes, jealousy plays an important role. Its like you get jealous every time his talking with a girl. All you think about is chopping the girls head and make a yummy stew out of it. See, love can make you be a dreadful person. muehehe

10) You start thinking about a future of you guys together. The possibilities of having it with him/her. Of course you would really think about your future. Could we do it? Is it possible? If you are in love anything is and you would do anything to make it a reality.


And of course after reading this, there's only one person that mingles in your mind. Yes, that one special person ! So these are just my own signs that fits me based on experiences. EHEM2. So, give me your feedback and your comments on the list. There's a lot more but I think this are the most obvious reasons Ive came up with. So, READ ON LOVERS ! :)

..that's all..love u dear

rcmp

akhirnya my dream came true, my prayers was heard. tq, this thursday, i'll study in rcmp back again. glad, excited, anxious about what's going 2 happen next. i'll do my best. nak tau x cne cte nye? cni..

i wake up early but then i fall asleep in mama's room. then i heard a call from my phone. misscall. tgk no cam no dari unikl. i started 2 feel abit pelik. nama unikl nak call aku? no len kot. kuar blik jap tgk mak xde kat umah. msuk blik blek, trus bring. xtaw pe nak wat dah..hehe. then not long after that, a call from the same no. agkat call, there's a voice of a gentleman.

encik : hello, ni XXX ke?

me : ye saya. ada apa?

encik : mcm ni, saya dari pihak unikl rcmp. ( a bit shock )

me : ye saya... ( dah suspen dah ni )

encik : saya nak maklumkan yang adek dapat tawaran wat program mbbs di rcmp.

me : rcmp?? ( dalam ati dah hepi giler dah. haha )

encik : ye. program vinayaka. nnti adek bukak lama web unikl untuk semak ye?

me : baik2. tapi ari2 saya bukak saya dapat mestech.

encik : saya bru je tukar tadi. nnti XXX check blek nnt. nnti daftar khamis.

me: khamis ni? ( cepat giler )

encik : ye. kami xnk adek lewat dftar sbb mgu ni ada aktiviti. jadi kami nk adek dftar awal. xnk ttgal byk bnda.

me : ok2. bleh saya tny? sape lagi yg dapat? ( trus direct tnya, haha )

encik : ada 4 org yang dapat. KD, XXX, nadirun dan jannah. suma dapat india.

and the rest is history.. habis call jerit2 dlu, bersyukur sgt2.. then txt acap dlu. then mama, then mak acap. then mama call, congratulate me. 'nnti kat umah kite bincang' haha.then acap called. followed by his mom. puas la smbang ngn mak dia..hehe..excited. have lots of things to be done. next post will be from ipoh ^^

angry birds

gara-gara pengaruh adek aku, aku trus dok menghadap men Angry Birds. haha. mula2 aku taw psal game ni sbb ada sorg mamat ni kata dia men Angry Birds kat iphone 4G kwan bek dia. haha. siap mention dlm post kat fb. then bberapa ari lpas, kazen aku tny abg aku ada game Angry Birds x. then ari ni baru aku prasan adek aku dok men slama aku dok kat umah. haha. dah tgk tb tgk korea je sape suh. aku suh la dia ajar, x pnah men pnya psal, kuno, hehe. dah lama pas 2 trus kemaruk men. bile x lpas mula la tension sorg2. macam org x btul jer^^ tapi best je, tgk bnda alah 2 kena bnuh. hahaha.tak puas ati bile dia dok cengih. benci btol.





ni adalah calon2 Angry Birds yg bajet 'angry'..



game simple. guna Angry Birds to kill the piggie2. yellow is 4 speed, read can pass through anything, white produce a bomb (egg bomb), blue is multiple bird, green one is like a "shuriken" and black is a bomb.

rasa cam dah ramai taw game ni kan? so xpyah cite pnjg. but i never thought that it is so famous, smpai org jadi maskot using the Angry Birds, there's plush toy, lego, even cakes and cupcakes they're using da icon. interesting.





kinda delicious huh? tapi yg pasti aku xmkn..haha. pk2 la sendiri ye. and kids, plz don try like this at home.



haha. joking, photo is edited. pape pun, jgn tiru ye.

attention

i hate gamers
i hate flowers
i dont wear skinny jeans or anything that is tight
i love reading comics..but im not an otaku
i prefer shoes
i dont eat veggies
i hate it when people didnt answer me when i called or asked
i dont mind people talked about me
i like taking pictures
i dont like being used
i hate when people asked me to draw for them but i dont want to
i prefer to keep silent
i dont snore
i love cats but i have allergies
i want to do what i want
i am single but not available, tq
i like to look at him
i like to be with him
i kept thinking about him

im in love

to you,
selamat berdaftar esok..all the best! missing u already

i need you.. so much

i really miss u. plz at least reply me. i wanna hear your voice.

i'm not strong without you

Girls day out

It's been a while since da last time we hang out together and it was just so much fun. Taking pics with my new iPad. Haha, how fun can it be..

No pics for now, I'll upload it next time. Its a bit relief because there are two of them who had a bit argument, but they get along very well. Bless to Allah ^^. Taking pics like we've never been to alamanda before (tapi banyak kali dah pergi, haha, bajet jer). And for the first time, I beat her in bowling!! Sebenarnye seri,tapi nak dapat seri pun susah tu, Kira menang la..haha. Zaman2 kegemilangan, when will be the next time for me to defeat her.. Lucky huh.? Well, not luck. Dah dap at strike and straight jer spare. Nak wat cane la kan. Haha..wondering what is he doing rite now?

miss him

because of loki and apit (some of his 2 dearest friends) is dropping by at his house, i don't think it's proper for me to call him. i barely talk to him today. i guess i have to get use to it huh? yela, kata lepas ni dia kat unikl and i am at ukm..kot. the whole thing is not confirm yet anyway..*sigh. don't know what to do..miss him a lot.

a new start..

well, my blog was hack, so does my fb..so this is considered as my new blog..haha..ni pun atas belas kawan yang sangat2 la bek dan comel^^

say hi and thank you

^^

my long journey back home

exhausting...but fun^^..tq mr. moo moo..

my life in ipoh..

1st impression...
bleh thn...ada tmpat nk shopping..haha...tau nk jln2 jer..

2nd impression...
kampus xde asrama....*sigh

3rd impression...
mana pintu msuk kampus ni..xnpk pun..hahaha..sesat punye psal..

dah 3 mgu tgal kat sini..bleh thn la jugak..stil bleh survive walaupun nk cri makan agak susah and umah dalam 30 mins perjalanan ke kampus...jauh kot..nk jln2 di hujung mgu pun sgt2 la susah..nk murah kne la call van..

1st week...
blaja anatomy..tgk mayat 2 mmg stail abeh la...tapi seyes ckp bsuk..siap ada yg ngs cm tgk drama melayu..laki plak 2...haha...sian2....bak kata mmber...awek dia wat dia ngs...hhahaha..hjung mgu...kite p open day!!! aku pun melawa la..pkai kain lagi 2..lawak2...rmate aku mmg ayu la...cannot say anymore...harap maklum...dah berpunya..ye dak t-rex?? hee~ lupa nk ckp...dktor suma dr myanmar ye..so no bahasa2..

 

1st week xde byk gmbar..sori2

2nd week

blaja biochem..trgat ckgu shahirah..rndu gler...tapi kali ni ktrg dktor mat sleh n pakistan kot...x sure la..haha...tapi cm x blaja je aku rasa...mcm ulang kaji jer...hjung mgu...air terjun!!! tapi oleh kerana ramai yg blek...tgl aku..thira..jiha..jue..acap .. and adam..

 

2 je la jejaka2 yg tgl...6 org jer...x  ramai...yg si gadis comel...ada byk gmbar dia sbb aku gna kamera dia..hehehe...org baru lpas rosak kamera...sdeh2..

3rd week

bru abeh blaja physio ngn dr noraini 4 dah whole week..td ada presentation...bgga gak kne puji ngn dktor...haha..tapi kredits 2 my ahli kumpulan.. gmbar xde lgi...n bsok nk jungle trekking ngn akak snior!!! yayyyy!! jln2 lg...hehe...

mslah yg mnimpa...

umah sewa x jumpa lg...*sigh

reason...by 4men

There is no way you can know me,
you don’t know anything
If you loved someone, then you will know me

 

Could you become me?
Could we exchange our hearts?
If you loved this much you will know my heart

 

You will never know my heart,
wanting to protect someone for the first time.

 

You can lean on me, it must of been hard for you,
you waited a long time
it took too long to come back to you
Hope this isn’t just accidental
My heart knows you first and tells me
I was waiting for you

 

Love changes a lot of things
even things you think that could never change
Even changed my little habits

 

In the end I hope it will be you
The person that will be with me,
That person will be you.

 

You can lean on me, it must of been hard for you,
you waited so long
Took too long to come back to you
I hope this isn’t just accidental,
My heart knows you first and tells me
I was waiting for you,
It was love from long before

 

I will scream to the world that I love you
I will protect you from now on
Even if my body changes,
My heart is still here
My heart knows you first

medic oh medic..

seperti yg sudah sedia maklum, ak dpat praktikal kat rcmp, though im not fully proud of it as lots of things need to be done. but at the same time, im scared as my 21-year-old kazen is now doing medic in universiti of warsaw in poland and my 20-year kazen is also doing medic in rcmp, perak,  the same place where i will continue my studies. i was excited as if i be able to make it, i will be the 3rd generation in medic following both of my kazen but if i fail.......*sigh...im very anxious as my 18-year-old kazen will take kursus sains hayat kat kolej mara kuala nerang (KMKN), which means he will take medic too...and he is my 21-year-old kazen's younger brother, both in medic....

obviously, i want to make my parents proud...but will i?? this is a major crisis...crisis!!!!!!

 

do i have to remember all this? *sigh

status = watching 'family comes here' reality show

praktikal..

the results is already out i got a place in unikl rcmp...i was really happy..i jumped all around the house...and i mean all around the house...haha.....but the it came to my mind that it was just only practical which only lasts 2 month, more or least...so...i still have to prepare for mcat test, interview and stuff..*sigh..wish it is not going to be this hard...yesterday my dad told me

"tunaikan cita-cita abah yang abah tak dapat tu.."

i was like...dushh..like a big rock crash on my head... i told few friends immediately..the ones who i can remember who get the same place as me..the lucky ones are as below.. jeng jeng jeng.....

tyra..nadirun..adam..irsyad,,fendy..hani..aina (budak kajang ^^)..farihah..atin..dyana..acap..zati..ana (tumpang aku nnt)..sape lagi ntah...can't remember..sowi

"daddy...i'll try to do my best...pray for my success..i can't do it alone.."

hello new home...cant wait...^^ ive just noticed that the places that i went to study is always kat utara..huhu..hope it last till the next 5 years..doctor to be??

i didn't mean to..

earth hour

supposedly it was yesterday..26 march 2011..that one is an old pic..i just like the quote..my family kinda celebrated it so we had a small BBQ at my grandma's house..so much fun even though it was kinda  dark..but we enjoyed it so much..eat some grilled meat..bananas..durians and so much more..and i was stuffed..and we carved something on a stone..i haven't take a picture of it..from my sis and me..

all i want to say...support earth hour..save our earth for us to live and also future generations..^^ peace

status = kat seri puteri lagi

coklat

lokasi. = skolah seri puteri

dduk rumah seperti biasa..tapi smalam mmg x tahan la..aku jadi suri rumah sepenuh masa...nk dijadikan cite..mak aku g lagkawi dri pg pkul 6.30 pi gtu smpai 12 tgh mlm gtu la....pergh..mmg x mnahan la melayan adek aku 2 org kat umah..sorang 2 dah la cerewet makan..aku msak spgheti tapi dia demand la nk 2 la..ni la....sabo je la...dah aku pling besar..so msak sndri...tapi seyes sdap kot...bukan nk kta riak la..tapi 2 yang pling sdap spgheti yang aku masak..tapi mama ada rasa sket..kata dia..jgn kering sgt..okie!.. xpe2..kite blaja..n pgi ta bgun..tgh byk sgt coklat kat umah...hershey's..amicelli..daim..pergh..dah lama x mkn..idaman kalbu la amicelli 2..mcm kinder bueno..tapi berganda sedap n sgt rangup!!

terbaik la..punya la susah nk jmpa..mama n daddy bwk dri lgwi..tq!!!^^

he is just the sweetest thing

honestly...i like him so much!!! he just made me like him even more...no one has ever been so sweet to me before..though it looks simple (the thing that he made for me)..i cherished it very much...i wish we'll be together till the end..lots of things we've done together..i still remembered the last time we met..i gave him something for one last time..it was very hard for me..my junior sat beside me in the taxi...i just don't care i cried in front of him..he ask me,"akak ok kak?" i just managed to smile..i really miss him though we text almost like everyday...   - - *sigh..

"even if i may or may not take medic in the future, i really hope that we'll be together..you know how i felt for you..wait for me..will you?"

p/s :  dok lpak kat mcd kat bngi ngn mama

al kisah si budak kecil

kisah ini sya ambil dari sebuah majalah. comel kan? tapi cite hidup dia sgt sdeh..

Bar'ah berumur 10 tahun, terpaksa mengharungi hidup tanpa kedua-dua orang tuanya. Dengan umur yang begitu mentah, Bar'ah lebih matang dari usianya apabila cukup tenang berhadapan dengan peristiwa yang begitu tragis dalam kehidupannya. Menjadi yatim piatu seawal usia tersebut, Bar'ah melihat ia sebagai satu nikmat dan rahmat yang Allah berikan kepadanya. 

Ketanangan yang ada pada dirinya, segala-galanya berpunca dari kelebihan yang Allah kurniakan kepadanya. Seawal usai 10 tahun, gadis cilik ini telah pun menghafaz al-Quran. Semuanya itu hasil dari didikan kedua-dua orang tuanya, yang bekerja sebagai doktor yang dipindahkan dari Mesir ke Arab Saudi untuk memenuhi tuntutan tugasan.

Dalam keluarga Bar'ah, al-Quran adalah 'sajian' utama. Lantaran itu tidak hairanlah ibu Bar'ah sering berpesan kepadanya, "Anakku Bar'ah, aku akan pergi ke syurga di depan kamu. Tapi aku ingin kamu selalu membaca al-Quran dan menghafalkannya setiap hari kerana ia akan menjadi pelindungmu kelak.."

Ujian bagi Bar'ah bermula apabila doktor mengesahkan ibunya menghidap baraj yang berada pada tahap akhir. Tiada apa yang boleh dilakukan melainkan saat menanti kematian. Dan saat itulah, Bar'ah menggunakannya untuk membaca al-Quran setiap kali dia pulang dari sekolah dan menziarahi ibunya yang terlantar sakit di hospital. 

Ujian terus menimpa Bar'ah apabila kebiasaan dia dan ayahnya melawat ibunya, ketika melintas jalan, bapanya dilanggar sebuah kereta lalu menghembuskan nafasnya di situ. Bayangkan tangisan anak kecil yang meratapi kematian si ayah di depan mata. Berita kematian ayahnya tidak diberitahu kepada ibunya kerana khuatir ia akan menjejaskan kesihatan si ibu. Lima hari berlalu dan waktu sampai ajal si ibu, si ibu masih tidak mengetahui si suami terlebih dahulu meninggalkannya. Begitulah cekalnya Bar'ah dan tenangnya dia berhadapan dengan situasi itu. 

Bar'ah diuji lagi. Setelah kematian kedua-dua orang tuanya, Bar'ah melalui ibu bapa kawan-kawan di sekolahnya berusaha mencari warisnya di Mesir . Tidak berapa lama tinggal di Mesir, Bar'ah dikesan menghidap barah. Berita tersebut sedikit pun tidak menakutkannya. Sebaliknya dia berkata, "Alhamdulillah, sekarang saya akan bertemu dengan kedua-dua oarng tua saya".

teringat kisah si Odeh yang shahid ditembak oleh tentera israel..nape mereka diuji sebegini? nape aku x sekuat mereka..

p/s : lepak kat seri puteri..tgk adek..

graduation

secara jujurnya..aku makin lma makin tension ngn exam final..study bagai nek gile tapi xtau apa yg msuk dlm kpala..*sigh... and bile nma nye exam final..kiranya aku dah grad la..as in MAY not step my feet here again in kuala nerang..kinda sad..well..not kinda...very2 sad..yela..xtau lagi bile nk jmpa my friends kat sini..im gonna miss TYRA and kecomelan dia..haha...DIBA ngn giler2 dia..JIHA ngan ayat pedas dia....ATIN classmate aku yg suka cari gduh ngn aku...(bajet cri gduh ^^)..SARA my best partner ever exist!! no one can ever replace her..huhu..Mr LOKI...yg aku bru je nk stat ckp2 ngn dia..ACAP..one of the earliest i know here..best friend ever..NAVI and his attitude...the one who not 'derma' darah but labcoat..haha..AMIR yang bajet mafia tapi x diiktiraf...hoho..SHIRA yang suka merajuk2 ngn aku...others who i didnt mention...truly...when will we ever meet again??

i started to think where am i going after this..being a doctor or pharmacist....dah separuh nyawa nk amek medic...seyes takut ble pk2 blek yg aku x leh nk carry the responsible being a doctor..phm2 la ngn busy nye..'on call' and emergency and stuff..xtau la pe nk jd pas ni...maybe aku akan amek pharmacy..2 be honest..theres a lot to think..even nk blik umah pn 1 hal...susah2...blek nek flight la katakan..blek kl..cuti + jalan2..then maybe..again...aku nk dok lgkawi for a while..ngn sape not sure yet...^^ nk tngkan fikiran...

march 3rd, 2011..

i wish you'll never come..

status = study math (trigonometry) kat ppkk

medic mock interview the 3rd

right now..im waiting for turn in mock interview at library...(boleh lagi ada masa nk update blog..haha) it will take a while coz i was supposedly interviewed by the doctor for another 1 hour..so...hang out..relax...chill..though deep in my heart i was so nervous...haha..but it is not my first time, im sure...what to say what to do...it's nature..everyone's nervous..adam is practicing with the girls..jannah is reading newspaper..jiha and tyra is practicing with themselves..and now..nader came out of the room...smiling happily ...

the question..

1.syed..describe yourself

2.seems like you want to be an orthopedic..is there any member of you family become an orthopaedic?

3.how are they're life?

4.could you tell us about the rough time?

5.current issues...dengue? how to reduce from getting infected?

and some info from a friend from others interview room..

dpa ada yg kna nyanyi..

*sigh..tension la mcm ni

how unlucky her.. and i've just called my mom and dad..they give some good advice and examples..very2 useful..dont look down.. and jiha is already done...scared..

keep smiling 

my dad and a friend

status = freak out

memoir?

another crazy week..and such emotional one..honestly..everyone is so busy mostly they dont have the time for themselves..same as me..

haha..i still remember when i had a 'congkak'  with mirul..haha..4 games straight and i won 4 games straight...poor him...he said that the game congkak was so hard..for him but not for me..plus with his large hand...i just cant stop laughing...haha...sorry mirul but i won't get easy on you even though you're new with it.. then with all the choral reading thingy..it was fun though i admit..it can be very tiring..really!! *sigh...but at least i enjoyed it.. very much..but i will never forget that day..

february 11th, 2011..

my life's a bit changed..i am happy.. but at the same time im scared...and i still remember..the time i met his parents on the next day...-- really it kinda freaks me out..haha....

today is february 15th..tomorrow on 4.20 pm our agreement is ended..i bet he felt so happy when he can do his habit back though i asked him not to..i just dont understand him..

come to think of it..i dont know why i cried listening to his song yesterday..

to amir oman hafiz..

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY!! 

i wish you a happy future from today onwards and have a blast.. ^^

status=listening to a song composed by a best friend and his best friend..'wings of love'

on one sleepy evening

(text incoming, just woke up from a nice sleep in the evening)

kimi : aku trtkn. ang nk bege x?

me: ive told u, jgn pk byk

kimi : nk bege x?

me : apa 2?

kimi : BURGER

me : bleh gak

(silent)

kimi : meh pfkk

me : skng ke?

kimi : ye la

me: jap

(silent)

kimi : aku tgh tggu

me : sat, aku tgh cr duit

kimi : wat pe mek? ak bkn jual bege

me : byr blek la, xkn aku nk amek gtu je

(otw to my lunch)

me : sengal, thnx

status = kelas comp 

first day..

nothing much to do..just laying down in the room with thira...my only roommate for now..huhu..so bored...i dont want to open the 'koperasi'...malas la...im not going to work alone..no way..unless someone wants to accompany me then i dont mind..from morning until evening..all i do is making questions for my chemistry assignments..*sigh...like its never going to end..anyway..i was thinking on what i will going to do for the next few days..

tomorrow..
1-hang out at the court at the morning..
2-study at ppkk...i guess..
3-nice sleep at the evening..
4-??

honestly..im hungry...sape suh makan maggi je..*another sigh.....

and i forgot that there is some pics from 'thinking ahead' program..enjoy..

bakal2 doktor..amin.

itu la dia ketua kitorg yang dipaksa menjadi ketua...no. 2 dari kanan

akak2 fasi yang sangat comel..^^

my group..tapi tak nampak muka..hehe

memories indeed..