change?

lately, i kept thinking about how i used to be and the way i am now. i was a girl who doesn't act like one, you know, wearing t-shirts instead of 'baju kurung', wearing sport shoe instead of heels. yeah, how bad i can be. i have to admit, i like way i am before. i like to wear my fav army pants which i bought it in hong kong 2 years ago, and i like to wear my brother's sweater which is so big, my hand is too short i can't see it. and i love sport shoes. so comfy. love it so much. well, i grew up with my brothers and their friends for years until my sister was born. took her long enough ^^. i don't like being labeled as a 'gedik' girl and i really don't like it when guys stare or look or wink to me. it is just so wrong. that is also why i dressed like a guy. but as i grew up, i know that it is quite unpleasant for a girl to act like a guy. when i go to 'kenduri kahwin', i don't wear 'baju kurung'. haha..weird huh? yeah, how bad i used to be. i tried to changed bit by bit and it was hard.

i started off with my 'tudung', followed by my shirts. i kept 'angan2' of  buying new clothes because my shirts is too 'ketat' and short, i don't plan on wearing it anymore.  so, my clothes is quite limited i must say. well, baju kurung banyak la tapi keinginan nk pakai baju kurung 2 agak susah la. malas nk gosok. 2 je sebab nye ^^. i don't know since when it happen but i totally fall in love with long dress and jubah now. well, recently i was reading dena bahrin's blog. she's a friend of a friend. she updated about what she has been doing recently which is preparing for her wedding. congrats to her ^^. and i saw her picture wearing a red dress and white cardigan with orange-like tudung. it was just so cute and it comes to me like...

"oh, how cute can it be if all girls and women wearing the same proper clothes as she is? would the world be at peace"

haha.quite funny, don't mind it. i'm just saying that 'manisnya tengok perempuan pakai baju cam2'. kalo mak boyfriend nampak memamg wat menantu la kan? haha..kidding2.. but i'm saying the truth, how  would i felt if all of my family members do the same thing. sejuk je mata memandang kan? i'm not saying that it was wrong with the way people dress. it is their freedom to do what they want to do. it is a free world, ok?

dalam hati memang dah lama nak beli tapi x mampu..ye la student lagi..elaun plak x masuk2..*sigh

took this pic from hijabschool page. have a visit there. i TOTALLY love their clothes!! \(^0^)/

i'm' trying my best to be like a 'true girl' ^^. be patient with me, sorry for last night

salam.
peace be upon you. peace be upon HIM.  ^^