my answer

recently with the GIT module was ok and i  understand the lectures quite easily...seronok mmg sgt la seronok..haha..but that's not the main thing i want to talk about here.. it's about OUR future

well honestly, things get up-side-down a bit with my 'moving house' stuff, your car, work, study, elaun and all that..it's quite..you know..hectic i can say.. we still need to know what we should do, how to like 'susun' everything in place coz its going to take while.. and don't forget to remind me about something happen in the new house kay? so.. for me.. quite hard i must say.. we need to settle the payment every month and i'm quite scared.. whether we can handle it on our own.. i mean our study and your work.. luckily zul came along with you to give a helping hand.. but don't use the car for something that is not important kay? mom asked me to remind you about that thing.. and if you need any of my help..i am just few roads away ^^

for study, i really need you to keep remind me to study.. i need motivation each and every day so don't get bored about it.. and i will do the same thing to you.. i want us to excel in study even though we're gonna be busy in the future.. i don't want our parents think that we are goofing around, i want they know that we are really serious.. so i've decided.. until we have kewangan yg betul3 kukuh, i won't tell my parents yet about us wanting to get married, till then we really need to strive in each thing we do..just cucuk2 sket2 la.. at least when they ask about money and expenses untuk lpas kawen nnt, we already have it in our hand.. at that time, we might only need to study really hard.. i'll try my best talk to them kay? pray for me.. make me strong, i need your support..and so does HIS.. ^^ study kk??

and about our planning on marriage, it cost a lot even though some things look easy and murah nk beli.. but life after marriage is not cheap.. we need to pay for the monthly rental, furniture, car gas, barang dapur, bils etc2... so it REALLY cost  a fortune.. i know you want to make it simple as it can be.. so do i..but we must expect higher than that.. prepare backup plan..like you said, you don't want money to become the problem of our relationship..

but not just that.. i want us to be prepare..secara rohani...mind, body and soul.. for me that is the most important thing.. marriage is a long term relationship.. insyaAllah smpai ke Jannah.. i don't want kite semangat nk kawen.. last2 sebenanye kita x fully prepared.. i don't want that to happen to us.. like you said again, cari duit pandai anak tungggang langgang.. insyaallah saya nak awak Muhammad Ashraf bin Ahmad menjadi imam saya, lelaki yg boleh bimbing saya and anak2 saya.. the one yang akan jadi teman hidup saya smpai bla2.. but i don't us to forget the reason why we want to get married early.. masing2 nk berada sah di sisi masing2.. nk dpat redha Allah.. i don't want bile dah kawen we will forget all those things.. masing2 ada tgungjawab, i will do my best to do mine, and you will do your best to do yours.. perkahwinan adalah satu sunnah Rasulullah.. bila dah ada anak nnti, dah menjadi 1 amanah untuk jaga diorg.. i want my kids to be soleh and solehah.. just like their late grandfather.. it's not a game like playing masak2 mcm time kecik2 dlu.. it's a whole different thing..

you know what.. one of my girl friend told me her love story just now and i cried.. how he love her so much make me felt so touched and i can't stop thinking about it.. how he take good care of her... though i don't know how it will end actually.. -.-"


hye you, Muhammad Ashraf bin Ahmad..

though i'm not the perfect girl you have been looking for.. i will try my best to please you now and especially when we are sah as husband and wife..
i will do my best to please HIM as i believe that he will help us despite all the hard times we had in the past, present and definitely in the future.. HE is the Almighty..

be strong and don't get mad at me easily.. i'm doing my best.. study well.. don't work too much..keep in track to Allah..

regards..
Nabilah Fitri Shamsuddin